Thursday, December 11, 2008

I am learning new things.....

Lately I have learned many things about myself.  I thought I would share this new knowledge:

I have spent too much time taking life for granted.  Not seeing what has been there all along.

I am deep, deep thinker, to a fault.

I am an all or nothing person.  I am passionate about things that matter to me.  I am either all in 100% or all out 100%.  There isn't any middle road to me and there never has been.  

I love with my whole heart and soul, no strings attached.  

I don't hide my feelings well, even when it is best that I do.  I can't pretend.  I have never been a pretender.  In the past, the times I have tried pretending or hiding, I have been read like a book.   

I crumble at the thought of not being able to rescue those who hurt.  I can't stand the thought.  I hate seeing others hurt.  It kills me.  It eats at me.  It keeps me up long after I have gone to bed.

Do I know I can't rescue others?  Yes.  But knowing that, is what hurts.   

This is me.  It is who I am.  Is it right?  Some would think not.  But for me, it is all I know.   

3 comments:

Carrie said...

I think it is awesome...probably because I am much of the same way as you are! I'm so glad we met :)

Beth said...

I wish there were more people like you! Greyson's mom is lucky to have you as a friend! Hang in there...God has a plan!

lkripp said...

Misti, I'm so sorry your hurting right now. I know for me, this year, has exposed me to a few life experiences that have been scary and beyond my control. I know exactly how you feel when you say you want to rescue those who hurt, but we are merely human, but He isnt, so we just have to leave it in His hands....=)

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